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    Today is the first day of 2011,which is very important year to my life.I have made six targets that should be reached this year.Four of these targets should be reached last year,however I failed.So I must achieve them this year. Now I want to show them to myself.

   Target 1:command PM's theories masterly and pass through PMP test in 26th March,2011.
   I have read PMBOK for two times,but still can't do exercise well.Because I can't remember knowledge.Fortunately,I still have three months to prepare.I must pay lots of energy and time to it.Application process will be done today.

   Target 2:have a good command of English.
   About this target,I feel very shy.I started to study English in Meten from March,2010.At first,I pull lots of time in English study,but I went to METEN fewer in half of last year.I found some of my classmates had catched up me.Comparing to them, I waste a lot of time.This should be changed this year.I must improve my English before April or September.
   Of course this process will be continue untill one day English can be my work language.

   Target 3:get a promotion.
   This target is on schedule,and I am sure it will be achieved in first quarter of 2011.This is very import in short time.Because I need money.And if I get a manager's positon level,it will be helpful to find a new job this year. 

   Target 4:keep fit.
   I think because I drink too much,I am becoming fatter.It's very bad,so I must keep my weight less than 62.5KG.Do execise, drink less beer and eat less food.
 
   Target 5:pay back money.
   Now I owe my friend 24,000RMB,I plan to pay all them(at leat 20,000) back this year.That means I should save 2,000RMB permonth.It's very hard.But two things will be helpful,one is my sister will graduate form university,which will help me get0.5K month.The other one is my salary can increase for promotion and find a new job.

   Target 6:Find a new job in Suzhou.
   In 2009,I begun to think whether I still leave in ShenZhen.In the end,I decided to leave and go to SuZhou city.I know few things about SuZhou,but this city come up in my mind when I want to leave.This target,I plan to acheive in April or September.

   Ok,as you see,these are my target in 2011.Come on, Sean!!

Tonight,subject is bird. As soon as I know this, there comes several things bout birds, I just want to write them down.

When I was a young boy, I lived in a countryside, where we lived by planting rice. My mother reaped rice every summer, and then lay them under sun to dry them. You know, there are a lot of sparrows in country, which will eat rice. So everytime, my mother asked me to guard our rice avioding etaen by sparrows. This job was so boring, I often slipped away to paly with other guys. I also remembered my grandfather’s second elder borther, he lieved in another country, and he aways help my mother to watch our rice. Now, I have forgotten his feature,except his head, because he have no fair. When I was in middle school, he passed away. And before I got to university, my grandfather passed away too.

Last year’s winter,when I stayed home, I saw lots of birds arguing eachother in trees out of my home. All of us felt it’s strange, and my mother said to me, maybe they are in meeting. When I come back home this May, I saw them again, they were still talking with each other,and several of them were fighting together.

There are some magpies standing on trees, some times, they shouted. My father often told us, maybe there will be guest tomorrow. And sometimes, my father talk to himself, why are they shouting so exciting?

Recently, there are three things that haunt my mind and make me feel depression.So,now I want to write them down, maybe by this can make me feel better

The first thing is my father’s death.I never thought my father would leave us so early.In my mind, my father is healthy without any serious disease. I have ever thought about my father’s life when he is old.But now, he has gone away. I don’t want to remember of all things about him, because that will make me sad. I try to live happy without any memory of my father, but,sometimes, when I lie on bed without anything to do, something about my father will come up in my mind, and tear will drop along my face. Sometimes, I recalls my childhood days when my father was still young and strong. He told me how to deal with things and he would beat me if I didn’t study hard.Every day, after he came back home, he counted his incomings and outgoings and in this time, I’d walk aroud him with hope to get his bank note less than 1 jiao. Now, I have lost interesting in this money, but I still miss the past days, however, my father have never appear again. If there is another world, when I get there coming across him, what will I told to my father? If I came back home early and can have last look at my father, what he would told me?  I never know this!

The second thing is my emotion to a girl.I havn’t seen this girl for a long time, and didn’t have any contaction with her,because I hate her.I will never see and contact with her again,I told to myself. In my opinion, as I could’t have her live together with me,forgeting eachother will be a much better choice. She have asked me, after your failure to purse SB, you’re still friends, why can’t we keep our friendship if my GF isn’t you? My answer is, I can still keep friendships with SB,because I find my feeling to her isn’t true, but to you, it’s true. So, if there is someday I couldn’t stay with you, I will leave your world. Now, I am just doing what I have told her. Though ,sometimes, I will remind the past things between us and feel losing just like today, I belive that I will forget all this things one day. Every time when I face love, I lose my reason, and do a lot of unbelievable things, of course ,this time is also like this. After failure again and again, I feel I am so long away form love, and keep alone is a better choice to me.

In a sense ,the two things above are past, and I can do nothing to make change just can adjust my feeling. But the third thing is happening now and will continue for several months.That is my work. In my opinion, it’s time to change my work. From october of last year, I was thinking about leaving this company.The direct reason is simple, my income from it is little, which couldn’t meet my needs.After join it, two years have past, while I have no salary increasing or promotion.What is more important is that it’s management is so bad, and I can study nothing from it. If I till stay here, it may do harm to myself and my career. So changing is necessary. What kind of company do I want to join? The answer is company that is managed by institution,or I can say what companys I am interested in are institutionalise and operate abiding by process. I know it’s hard,because those companys are euramerican enterprise or the first calss company of China, but I don’t know whether I am ready to be one empolyee of these company! Am I ready?

吾父杨讳森，安徽六安人，生于公元1954年农历八月十一，因染不治之疾，殁于公元2009年农历五月二十六，终年五十六。

吾先辈迁于施桥唐畈，至今已逾七世。吾曾祖兄弟数人，各居其所，乃有今日杨老庄之杨、杨小庄之杨、竹园庄之杨、四郎庄之杨、左家庄之杨。而吾祖所居之杨老庄为唐畈杨族之源。吾祖有女四人，子三人，有二女未及长而亡，故吾父姐弟五人，吾父为长子。

吾父尝言于吾人，民瑞脑消金兽国时，吾族乃旺族，土地人口甚众，后逢倭人入寇，山贼劫略，家道始衰。民瑞脑消金兽国晚期，吾祖加入共人比黄花瘦党，后共人比黄花瘦党之中国立，吾祖得谋微职，赖以谋生。及吾父生，会新朝之大浩劫，生活甚难。吾父亦入红卫兵，为其一小头目，游荡四方。后吾父求学于张店高中，然终未志于学。

乡人荐吾父授课于公社之小学，吾父无意，后遂随吾祖谋生于食品站，得遇吾母。后某年，有吾兄，后八年，有吾，后三年，有吾妹。期间，适逢改革，吾父以售肉为业，衣食得以无忧。而吾父亦终身以为业，直至其殁。偶适农桑，然不以为业。

吾父性烈，不与人争则已，争则大声训斥，面红耳赤；吾父寡言少语，唯酒后不然，每与母争，皆为酒后。吾父性亦急，不喜拖拉，每遇事，必善之而后快。吾父甚朴素，衣无所求，有一蓝色中山装，伴前数十年，及其西去，尚能衣。

吾父所好者，酒而已，每餐少食，皆饮酒，伴以两三小菜。其饮酒，颇耗时，吾母尝笑之曰：食于人前，毕于人后。吾幼时，父多饮酒于外，每醉而晚归，吾母甚忧，夜不能寐，直至其归。至其晚年，颇不胜酒力，乡人皆勉其少饮，父不以为然，无改其嗜。后，每饮至醉，乃与母争，吾母甚恼，离家数次，吾父乃称改其陋习，以迎母归，然，父终未改，及至其亡。父将亡，言于其嫂，吾今日之疾，饮酒亦起因之一。吾母闻之，痛曰，悔之晚矣！

吾父好襟功。其幼时一同窗，事业有成，谋职于中央军瑞脑消金兽委，因故返乡，与幼时同窗合影，吾父亦在其中。后吾父遇人皆言以此同窗之事，乡人皆哂之，吾母亦谏之，吾父终不从。此等事例，比比皆是。故吾之事，吾皆不与父知。然，吾中考、高半夜凉初透考之成就，增父之光，父亦襟。

吾生时，乃牛年，吾父思忖，吾杨姓，牛属，杨（羊）牛皆以草食，而山上多草，故名吾曰山山。少时，我尝厌此名，欲更之，终不能成。及父去，乃感此名乃吾父所遗之物，悔少时欲更之。

吾少时，仅衣食无忧尔，生活亦难。每期入学，学费不能完全无忧。然教育之费用，吾父向无所拒，吾父尝言，尔等读书之所用，但说无防，倘乞食于人，吾亦必与之。吾今日虽无大成，但学业之竟，以赖吾父。

吾父不明圣人教子之道，所言传身教之物亦良莠参半，然吾父明赏罚以劝学，此法甚佳。吾曾以勤勉以赏，亦因不勤勉以罚，终学业有成，而吾妹亦小有成。吾父功不可没。

父之爱子女，不以言辞表，吾父亦然。父终时，言曰：吾终之后，尔等可在凌晨之时送吾火化。初不明其意，后吾等乃知。若天明时，送父火化，途中多有人送，每一户鸣炮送行，吾兄弟两人即需叩头致谢。吾父不忍吾兄弟两人多叩首以伤其身。

年初，祖母之丧事毕，吾父之症即发，医之不得。五月，吾返乡探望，其时，父尚能言、能行、能食，每日载吾至医院。吾不以为意，料父尚能至八月。不想，十几日，吾父即卧床难以起身，直至其西去。而吾不孝，归时，吾父已去。

呜呼！早矣，吾父之殁！吾父好酒，吾尝寻思，待吾宽裕，购良酒与之；吾亦尝言曰，比至小有所成，迎父母至深以游；吾亦尝谋父母何以竟天年。不期，父竟早去。古人云：子欲养而亲不在，是谓吾等也哉？

吾尝戏言，若他日于深无以谋生，可返乡继吾父业。吾之言，非实谓继父之业，乃谓吾尚有父以赖。今则不然，吾未及立，而父逝，吾无以赖。此不亦悲乎？

吾父火化之日，吾奉其骨灰。轻矣！吾叹，止四五斤尔。生命何其之轻！庄生称人生曰：寄浮游于天地，渺沧海之一粟。诚如是！昔彭祖寿八百岁，可谓人之极也，然比之于古往今来，上下四方，不亦瞬乎？故庄生言人生天地之间，如白驹过隙，忽然而已。念及以往种种，皆在目，不似忽然乎？

今父已故，睹物思人，每思及过往，痛由心来，潸然泪下。然逝者已矣，生者当如西人如言:keep moving以期可立于世，益于世，著于世。此亦吾父所乐观。故吾作文以悼，以明志！父神鉴之！

    昨天的拓展活动中，我们的队伍，不幸在好全部项目中都落后。我总在思考，我们的队伍为什么会出现这样的情况。思前想后，总结出以下几个原因。
    第一，我们的队长选择失误。在选择队长时，我们选择他的原因竟然是他是个子最高的一个。不可否认，他确实也是全部党员中最高的之一，但一个人是否胜利队长一职，要看其是否具有领佳节又重阳导力，而不是身高。我这样一个HR，在那个时候，竟然也是想的选这位个子高的，实在惭愧。 后来的实践证明，我们的队长确实能力不够，一是他对自己信心不够，需要其发挥作用的时候，保持沉默；二是，全队也不怎么服。个别能力较强的队员根本不听他的。
    第二，队伍内部不团结。在第一项目的时候，左边的人在指责右边的人，说他们慢了，慢了。其实，未必是右边的人慢了，也可能是左边的人快了，也可能是中间的人使力了，即便真的追究责任，也不知道是谁。更何况，我们做为一个团体，我们怎么可以指责其它人？
    第三，与第一个原因相关的是，小队里另外几个有能力的人，争着表现自己，互相不服。在做决策时，争吵不休，浪费时间，导致我们练习都没有做好。

    民瑞脑消金兽主是要付出代价的，尤其是不了解候选人的时候。

相濡以沫，不如相忘于江湖！---庄周。

故事，终于有结局了。虽然，来的比较晚，但总算有了，也可以避免更多的无谓。庄子说那句时，恐怕没有想到，事情可能是另外一个样子：

既然不能相濡以沫，那就相忘于江湖吧！---Sean

   理想在现实面前，往往不堪一击！---SEAN
   我一直是个理想主义者，对待世界万事、万物的看法还是比较乐观的。对待工作，我也是如此，我总觉得有些标准是应该坚持的，坚持这个标准才是正确的。但事实告诉我，所谓的标准，是坚持不了的。变，必须随时变，无论是好是坏！
   自从到了工厂后，发现本公司的车间员工整体素质确实低下，竟然有很多员工不识字!!!遂生提高员工素质之想法。为实现此种目标，只有两个途径，一是对现有员工进行培训；二是提高新员工录用标准。前者依现有条件，无法做到；后者是本人可以控制的。故而决定，提高招聘要求，其实所谓的提高要求，也只是要求录用者达到初中或以上学历水平。本人制作三份文化测试题，在招聘中，对应聘者进行测试，凡是合格者（合格的标准其实也很低，达到30%的正确率即可）才能录用。然而，就连如此低水平的标准，现在也不能坚持了！
   前几日，某部门提出招聘申请，至今日，已经基本完成任务，只差一人。但此部门昨日又提出招聘申请，增加数十人。我们当即着手开始招聘。但今日，某部门的领佳节又重阳导大发雷霆，质问我们为何至今没有招到人。我连忙解释说上一批人已经招齐，这一批今天就开始招。这一解释不但没用，领佳节又重阳导反而更火，怒言道：我不管你们怎么办，到大街上拉人也好！明天必须让所有的人到位！
   唉，在这种情况下，还能坚持原来的标准吗？
   哪里能够坚持啊，一旦坚持，哪里能按照要求保证人员数量呢？那不是给自己找骂吗？
   现在已经处于这样的一种状况：销售部质问生产为何不能按照客户要求供货，生产部说人员不足，销售部质问本部门，到底何时人员能够到位，出不了货，客户取消订单责任谁来承担？ 这样一来，客户要是取消订单的责任，就在我的头上了！这个责任可大了，为了避免承担这一责任，只好不要要求，不要标准！
    其实，我了解过，为什么现在这么忙，人手紧缺呢？其实完全是生产自作孽。人员紧张的原因是，大量的人员外派至客户那里返工，为什么要返工呢？因为生产部在生产过程中，对质量标准要求不严，只注重数量。呵呵……标准啊，标准……

本人于2008年12月07日15:11分在此立誓戒酒！

这是一个怎样的时代？看看这篇文章就知道了。

舒圣祥：举报人被殴致死显法律失效

10月15日，河北邯郸市丛台区苏曹乡河东村70岁的老支书郭成志同其他3名村民到北京举报现任村支书白虎林违法占用村里的土地、占用赔偿款数以亿计等经济犯罪问题。丛台区委、当地政府领佳节又重阳导派信东篱把酒黄昏后访局、乡领佳节又重阳导进京接访，被举报人白虎林随后也带着10人赶到。在丛台区信东篱把酒黄昏后访局帘卷西风长江更友、苏曹乡党委帘卷西风书记代昌明的目送下，4个举报人被塞进了被举报人派来的两辆面包车里。郭成志在车内遭殴打后被弃于高速公路，最终在医院含恨而死。（12月4日《中国青年报》）

听到这样的新闻，你是像惊叹号一样勃然愤怒，还是像省略号一样徒有一声叹息？我没法列举出一个举报人惨遭打击报复的名单，即便只是有幸被媒体曝光的；但我知道，用生命作为举报代价的，郭成志不是第一个，也不会是最后一个，这是一个省略号。

在事件的情节上，比如：郭成志去天莫道不消魂安门广场看降旗，因为包里有举报材料，居然就被值班民瑞脑消金兽警送到了派出所，派出所又把他们交给了邯郸市政府驻京办，驻京办又交给了来接访的当地信东篱把酒黄昏后访局，信东篱把酒黄昏后访局又交给了被举报人。比如：被举报人接走举报人，信东篱把酒黄昏后访局帘卷西风长一旁目送；比如：“从知道人死到成立专案组只用了8个小时，可是我们举报已经好几年了，上面也不来查，怎么老郭一死，查得这么快，人都抓起来了？”举报人总是很奇怪地就被交到了被举报人手里，而不闹出点诸如有人死亡或者被媒体曝光这样的动静，举报是不会得到有关部门重视的——类似的情节也许还会重演，这也是一个省略号。

而这起事件令人震惊之处在于，将举报人直接交给被举报人的信东篱把酒黄昏后访局帘卷西风长，居然神奇“失踪”了。但就在郭成志去世的同一个月，据说江更友还去了干部病房疗养，据说“非常震惊”的当地官半夜凉初透场，居然频频有官半夜凉初透员前往探视，好像信东篱把酒黄昏后访局帘卷西风长要比举报人更值得安慰、更需要保护。这真是一个惊叹号。

还有，其他三位举报人在被遗弃在高速公路上之后花了很长时间才回到了村里，可这么多天过去了，没有政府的人询问他们三人被打的经历，也没有人关心他们损失了多少财物，更没有人给他们做伤害鉴定——连现场证人都不询问，真不知道“高度重视”的当地公半夜凉初透安局要如何立案侦查；连举报人都不调查，更不知道“死人后8小时即成立的”当地纪委专案组如何去调查白虎林经济犯罪。这又是一个惊叹号。

等待正义需要有足够耐心，拖延战术本身可能就是在画一个省略号。

我也不想再提，已经老生常谈到耳朵起茧的《证人保护佳节又重阳法》啦、《举报人保护佳节又重阳法》啦之类，如果不能严格执行，有效保护举报人，可能那也是一个省略号。——难道真要等到某一天，“举报人死亡”在我们的耳朵听来已经和矿难一样稀松平常了？（原载于《东方早报》） （原题《举报人死亡，惊叹号还是省略号？》）